november 5

i honestly don't know how to start it with.

my mind is in a major clutter and my thoughts are not sewn together, which is not something new. i have so many things to write about, how i spent my semestral break, what were the oddly unexpected things that happened, and the other whereabouts that comprised the three-week break from the hustling and bustling school months.

so what do i write about now? i'm gonna begin with the end of it.

a two more day lease of the break and everything will be back into chaos. today is the last day of my long gone best friend and tomorrow she's flying back to Manila. her life belongs there now, which unfortunately separated us when plans for college didn't turn out as how we've dreamed of it. going to college together, new school which is far from the old lives we have prepared ourselves to depart from, same dorm, late night project making, going out and chilling TOGETHER, that was the dream, but things were impeded by my parents who cannot afford to let go of my leash. but i have accepted the reality that i will always be living by their plans until i graduate. but this is not what this entry is all about. so she's leaving tomorrow and her birthday is today. she's anxious about her age actually which is understandable. everybody freaks out in a different way everytime they turn a a year older, while others simply let the day pass without fussing about it. we spent half of the day together, doing the same old things we used to do, eat, talk, walk and eat, talk and walk some more. that routine has not changed even if parts of us have. there was a bit of awkwardness since the gap has been long and a lot can happen in a while. we were leading separate lives for a long while, but inspite that something that we have shared once keep us on the same ground. the people from the past and the gushing about our old crushes never fail to lighten up the conversation and bring us back to how we were.

dinner with her family was fantastic. the back ribs were very satiating but the laughters filled my appetite way, way, way more. her father is so adorable, a judge who doesn't look and act like one. the nipslip of her father was epic. :) her mother is very accommodating and reminds me a lot of my mother. and her sisters are very intellectual and witty, all products of University of the Philippines. the dinner was filled with a lot of conversations and humorous exchange of stories.

the night has to end. i went home and when i hit my bed, it was only then when everything sank in, she's leaving and it'll take a while before we see each other again. it's sad to be left by a friend, a best friend, my sister. we may not talk a lot, but her presence makes me feel that i have a friend i can always laugh with and that no matter how crappy life can get, we can always whine about it together and at the end of the day, laugh about it. that's her, my soulmate. she's like the other half of me, the one that destiny has included when it created my story. one of the main characters that my story will be incomplete without her in it. i'm gonna miss her.