Haggling

         

        

Haggling.

                People haggle to get the best out of the little that they can give, which is kind of unfair for the other end. It does not only happen during a purchase of good, sometimes real life circumstances may need some haggling when in desperation and hopelessness, haggling can give a little hope, a little light, a little chance of getting what you ask for. Since in life, money can't always play its role in buying things, haggling can be done in the form of a barter, an exchange of something for another, maybe giving up something for another or by in every essence of this word, harsh and hard, sacrificing something in exchange for something else. An agreement that could exist with another person, or with Someone who apparently owns and controls everything that we move around with in this world.

                Haggling has always been my resort when I ask for something that seems impossible. I bet something on an agreement that could possibly win me my wish, and hoping that in giving up something, I can have something that I lack at the moment. It has become a constant fallback whenever I feel that what I ask for is too much or too big, and for a while I thought that it's being fair, because I don't just ask for something, I actually am willing to give up or sacrifice something and make room for a new one, for something that I badly want. It's fair. Haggling has actually worked for me a few times, maybe enough for me to recall, but not overtime, then the inconsistency hit me, you don't get everything you demand for even if you sacrifice something else, and the old cliché then made itself once again, true, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be. Well, true enough, if one thing is meant for you no haggling is necessary, cause it'll be given to you without anything in exchange because it is really meant for you. But as I type this along, a thought contradicted me, haggling can justify the importance of something for you, because if you don't think of it as something as important as you see it, then you can just let it pass you and get by without feeling bad about it if you won't get it, but it's not. Per se if you are ready to give up something then it only shows that what you don't have is more important than what you already have at the present, and then another thought starts to argue with this, if you think that something is more important than what you have at the moment then it shows how discontented you are, and that you don't appreciate your blessings. Haggling is also an act of selfishness, in some cases that is, when you haggle and sacrifice something, you miss on considering how the other person or the people involved with the move would feel. It could hurt them, specially if the results or the consequences are too vague to foresee or too hard to prepare for. People will always be inevitably affected, and that's a part of it.There are selfless haggling too. To haggle for something that would help another person, directly or indirectly is a form of haggling that is selfless. If you haggle for the good of others, then most likely it would be granted.

                   

             I am in the state of haggling right now, still waiting and hoping that my offer would be taken and that my wish be granted. I have thought of the things that haggling can bring and do to me and other people, I have considered every aspect of it and examined every possible result of it, and I'm positive that it will not harm other people, and it may bring good to a few, but the fact that it will bring goodness is something that should keep me optimistic with the effort. In the end, it's still all up to HIm.

offbeat and deranged

so many things happened, overwhelming and unexpected things, disappointing things, things that taught me lessons, saddened me, escalated my joys and there were those that were spur-of-the-moment things that caught me in a state of shock and disbelief. innumerable things, great things and to try to list them down here one by one will just turn my head and thoughts into a great chaos of events, sifting through would be tedious, and I don't want to miss out on things, I just hate missing out on details, so I'm gonna talk in general or try to recall the ones that stood out the most. Emotions will always play that very significant and influential key role in my reminiscing of events, those that have set my emotions in a whirlwind are considered to be most significant and a stand out. 

The last few weeks of the first semester were really exhausting, weeks and days were always filled with so many errands and work to do, but as the lazy and slack that I am, I tried to put off some things until I get to the point that I realized that I was already running out of time, and that work was already taking its toll on me, but I don't like giving in to pressure, I condition myself that things should not be fretfully done, rather it should be done with ease and no pressure, but that doesn't work all the time, not at all. So I ended up cramming and suffering days  and nights without sleep, but I was not in the position to complain because all of these things were all because of my complacent attitude...

BLOCKED.